Yesterday was my last therapy session. The Psychologist tells me I have all the tools, I just need to keep working at using them. It's much easier to slip back to recognizable past behaviours; it's difficult to keep working at new tools. Detachment from the alcoholic is not easy because it is mutually exclusive to marriage. I suppose that is why most people here say: "Leave them."
If pity is what it is, then so be it. I'm the one who must live with myself. There is always a third option. I will not let her die alone. That one thought is what drives me to use the coping tools taught to me.
Some days are simply not easy <<<sigh>>>
This must be the step 10 struggle.