Originally Posted by
flickedhisbic 
I get a guy to love me for a couple hours while we're both drunk and then I leave before he wakes up. There's no boyfriend/husband to disappoint. No one knows me unless I'm drunk. When I'm sober there's only a giant gaping hole of regret, shame, feeling like a f****** wh***. And that's on a good night. .
you are me ten years ago. I spent ten years doing that. I think for me it was what you said AND my way of "getting back" at guys because I had been raped at age 17 and wanted that "power" back. stupid. I got HPV for my wonderful behavior. thank god my doc caught it early, i got cryosurgery and it's been GONE for 20 years. i mean hell, it causes cervical cancer.