Welcome, john -
I'm sorry for what you're going through - I remember how helpless I felt when I made my first post. I'm glad you reached out today. Taking the first step is always the hardest.
I found a site for low-cost rehabs - and noticed there were some free ones, too:
California Drug & Alcohol Rehabs (Low Cost)
I sure would consider going to the ER, though, if you're having jaundice. We're here for you, so keep reading/posting.....:ghug3