I am just so disheartened with my addiction because I hsvent found anything that works and I kind of feel as if I cant do it. I think I am on my way back into a depression which can get pretty bad. I dont want to go back there. I know what I want in life and addiciton just doesnt fit anywhere in it. I am glad that i am using suboxyn now as i feel I can start my life and not waiting until I recover which I know is a process. Thank you guys for the advice.