Not to focus on the negative side but...you still have a job Jeni!
A lot of people loose that to alcohol. I know that was my greatest fear and it's what pushed me into quitting when I did because I was so scared that I'd have to take time out of work to detox. Work can be pretty stressful but then life is pretty sh;tty without it.
That said, good luck and don't forget to breath...hugs xxx