Here again, now 150 days from that ghastly night in Hospital and that lonely soul destroying walk back, But I am sober !
Cannot lie day 100 to day 140 for me have been the hardest, last 10 days the cravings have eased of in a dramatic way, not to sure why but they have. I have made my plan I am never ever going back to alcohell, for all the downsides I have had the positives are far far greater . Romantic thoughts of drink are fading a little because I now think every thought through and ask myself questions like: Will it really change my life for the better tonight if I have a bottle of wine ? Will something magical happen to me ? How will I feel in the morning ? The major shift in thinking for me is that I now DO not care what people think of me not drinking, its my life I will live it. These people, do they know I have given 33 years of life to alcohell already ? If they think I am some kind of sandal wearing goody goody, that's there problem.
Never going back, onwards and upwards !