I think it was wrong to say that you were not crazy, when someone suggested you needed help from a professional therapist. No one said you were crazy--they said you needed help.
Please look back at what you wrote in this thread. You sent a thousand messages to someone and harassed him to the point that he called the police, yet you still believe you stand a chance with him. If it were someone else who recounted this, what would you say to that person?
Notice, how you solicit feedback and then dismiss the feedback that differs from what you wanted to hear. You even at some points tell people what feedback they should have given instead. At no point that I saw, do you ever entertain a notion that you did not already have when you began. Again, I suggest looking at this as if it were someone else that had written here instead of yourself. What you you say to that person?
I bet you agree with everything you wrote in your original post. What do you think that means?