I find my mind slipping from time to time and i start bargaining with my sobriety. Well, i can drink once a month. When that happens, i get to SR ASAP and read relapse threads. I haven't read many if any threads that go "oh boy! I had a relapse and it was GREAT!" After a few sobering threads of how awful relapses are i feel more grounded and i feel rather silly for trying to bargain with booze.