I remember being surprised often by 'auto pilot' responses, 'coming to' with a drink in my hand.
I remember lots of other times too when I genuinely felt the only solution to my problems to drink.
I remember lots more items when I would have given anything not to feel a certain way, so I drank...
I know now that when I picked up a drink again after promising I never would, I feel was making a choice, it was a bad one, and I had the power not to make that decision...but that's hindsight.
I don't think any of us should forget the way it used to be.
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