I think cussing out my boss and having to appear in public with a black eye and busted lip are about as bad as I want it to get. It was a huge wake up call for me and this site has been, too.
I've been telling myself for the last three days that I have to find out why I am so damn angry and why I am lashing out at people who don't deserve it. I told myself that my drinking was just a symptom of a bigger problem. Find out what the bigger problem is and fix it. I can't do that if I am drinking. I bartended on and off since I was seventeen, and I never saw myself as I did some of my "career" regulars but now I damn sure don't see myself as a social drinker. Hiding in my apartment drowning regret with Absolut sure isn't social by any stretch.