I love this post that your son saved you. I have three children from a previous marriage and I now realize howm much pain this caused them to see their mom so completely consumed with a spouse that was clearly in need of help and I was always making excuses for him. I have along way to go in my recovery and everyday is a challenge but they make me see there is so much out there for all of us and I need to let go and move on. I haven't really been ther for them even though I was home I wasn't present and I feel so guilty for that it was selfish of me. I love them more ten anything in the world and I want peace and serenity for all of us . Life is too short and I missed so much these last seven years , I even lost myself.