In the book "Women who run with wolves" the author mentions in many stories/myths how the woman figure cried and how the tears kept demons away. Tears protect her.
In my case I was in so much pain I was unable to get back to XABF and try "one more time". I truly feel tears saved my life. I would have gone back, back again, back again to active alcoholism.
Cry all you need to but remember you are not alone. We are rooting for your success (sanity, peace, health, joy.. ) over here
A guru told me that, while crying, to imagine another me hugging myself and consoling the one in pain. This visualization has helped me.
I truly believe crying is already healing. A space opens in the end.
PS I recommend "the Grief club" by Melody Beatty, its about dealing with all sorts of changes including ones related to addictions.