Bad time right now--and something just hit home...
Well, it's 9 AM where I am at and I want a drink sooooo bad right now. I had recorded the Oprah with the alcoholic mom and just finished watching it. Instead of it resolving me not to want to drink, now I want to drink more. That lady on there named Sarah is just like me. It was scary watching her because it was like watching myself. I have a huge assignment due right now (I go to school 0), but I think I need to go find a meeting to go to today because I am afraid I will break either today or this evening and I don't want to. I've gone since Monday morning without a drink and I want to keep going with this. Sobriety feels good, but struggling to stay sober hurts.
I don't know where I am going to get the courage to go to that first meeting... but I've got to find that courage today, because I don't think I can make it through the day without it.
I'm feeling kind of nauseous and shaky right now. I am hating this feeling...