Originally Posted by
Drunkandalone 
I haven't hurt anyone really during all of this, I have been relatively peaceful at my apartment just drinking. The only thing I might've impacted is my job.
Sweetie, you HAVE hurt someone from your drinking -- the most important person you should be worrying about-- yourself. I've read the rest of this thread and am happy to hear you're dumping out the alcohol.
Try not to worry so much about the ex... I know, I know, easier said than done. If you're a reader, check out a book called "It's called a break up because it's broken..." It has some sound advice that is written in a pretty funny way. The best part? It's written by someone who has been in recovery for over 10 years and having the problem with your ex AND the alcohol -- it's pretty insightful for both.
This too shall pass, promise.