I am 3yrs clean & sober. I live in London, go to meetings, do service, work a programe & do all the suggestion. You could say I am good student. Then for some crazy insane reason I start relationship with newcomer & almost trash everything. I learn a painful lesson, this is illness of perfection & thought i had perfect recovery, there is no such thing. Now i feel ego pain like nothing i experience so far. Does this make any sense at all?