Good morning!
The not sleeping bit lasted quite awhile for me. I needed to have my doc prescribe a non-addicting med (Trazadone) to take before bedtime - that is helping.
Bottom line - the addictive voice in your head in going to try to get you to pick up a drink - to sleep, to feel better, to handle something, blah, blah. Sometimes it will be screaming at you to drink.
There is NOTHING that you can do better drunk than sober. Not one thing. Even sleep, because alcohol screws up your natural sleep cycle.
Keep posting.
Pam