Oh, and I found out today that he's shopping for handguns online. He's always been interested in guns but never bought one. I am sooooooo not comfortable with guns in this house because of how he talks of suicide sometimes. He's told me that he doesn't have the guts to do it, but you just never know.
I'm just feeling depressed and worn down today. Thank goodness I found a Saturday AM meeting. I am planning on going soon!