OMG thanks SR friends, suki, Impurrfect you have offered your ESH since I joined the forum in my lowest of lowest .. I am so grateful for your friendship & company.
Impurrfect you never know when things will change, you have to keep the faith and hope. No pity parties allowed tonight ! you got life and you got many resources in you, inner strength, resilience and I am learning these are the foundations of real happiness & contentment.