Hi Soulfly,
I can definitely relate. I was drinking vodka every night for two years during the height of my alcoholism. If I ran out and the liquor stores were closed, I would wander into various bars. Some would cut me off, so i would wander the streets to the next bar. Next day I would have very vague memories, but sometimes I would have cuts and bruises to tell me that I wasn't in any shape to be in public. It sounds like your drinking has become a serious problem for you. Get some help before you hit bottom like I did.
Welcome to the forum!