Glad you're back, Bayliss.
So I'd suggest that this...
Had some wine on one Saturday evening and then just dropped if the next day without really thinking about it.
...is no different than this:
In my opinion, there are no degrees of relapse. You are either an active alcoholic or not. Because that first drink leads to alcoholic drinking. It may not be the same day, or even the same week, but it leads there as sure as the day leads into night.
And obviously still can't handle my liquor.
To me this is the whole game in a nutshell. I think AA, Rational Recovery, pretty much every approach agrees that giving up that fantasy is essential to recovery. I know it was for me.
Honestly, it was also a relief to simply embrace the concept of never having another drop. I've got one life. I don't plan to spend it chasing alcoholic rainbows.
Glad you're back where you belong.
