I agree, I think cold turkey is the best. If i kept maintaining i would only be prolonging the inevitable.
To answer you keltie, my insurance is NOT through my employer. It is through a family member's employer. My employer does not offer insurance benefits or paid time off of any kind. If i take that much time off from work, i will lose my job and my place to live, etc. it's not an easy situation, considering to seek private treatment outside my insurance would cost me money i dont have. So the affordable treatment puts me on the street, but cleans me up. And they will not make exceptions in this program for anyone with a job. If you want suboxone through them, you must comply.
I appreciate the advice, and congratulations icandoit12, i hope to be where you are soon! It is so inspiring and good to know that if others can do it, i can too.