Hi and Welcome,
It sounds like you`ve decided what you intend to do.
No one can decide for you if you are an alcoholic or not. It`s a decision you need to make yourself. And, it`s not about how much or how often you drink, it`s about how alcohol affects you when you drink. It takes a lot of motivation to stop drinking and to recover though, and I don`t hear that kind of passion in your post.
I do hope that you read around the boards and get a feeling for the support we offer and I hope that you decide to stop drinking.