Gottalife

If you are alcoholic, you are suffering from a progressive illness which, over any considerable period gets worse, never better.

If you have crossed that line there is no return, you can never drink safely again. Hiding bottles and so forth is not the sign of a normal drinker.

So first you have to decide if you are alcoholic (there are worse things and it's not your fault). If you decide that you are, then you have to decide if your want to stop and then settle on the method of stopping.

We usually try will power first and if that doesn't work, we dream up some other ideas like controlled drinking, or substitute other drugs. When all else fails and we have pretty well lost everything, especially our self respect, many of us turn to Alcoholics Anonymous. It's usually the last resort, but it is the single most effective treatment for alcoholism ever, and its free.

Some folks, more sensible than me, just go straight to AA and save themselves all that pain. They are only a phone call away. The easiest path might be to check it out.