I tried the "1 drink" thing about 6 years ago and it got me 2 dui's and a lot of not so good stuff. But the one thing that it did get me was to accept responsibility for me, my actions, my choices and realize that I can't just have 1 drink. Funny how I used to plan around 1 drink because I knew 1 would lead to 12 so I would pick what days I would drink because I knew I could handle a hangover the next day. Thinking that should have told me something long before the cops and the courts did! For me personally I can't wait for the day when I can say "I don't want a drink" instead of "I can't have a drink." I wish you luck brdlvr! Hang in there and remember you are not alone and you are not the first nor the last person to follow that path!