The hardest thing to do and the most necessary thing to do was not to look at the bottle to see how much was gone. I thought I was looking to see how bad it was getting. In retrospect, it's always bad and the amount hasn't varied that much.
I'm letting go of the control thing and trying to give it to a higher power. The fact that I can now walk by the cabinet that holds her stash and not look inside has really made me feel like I'm outside of the grip of this thing.