Originally Posted by
enpointe 
its like i just keep testing the limits to see how far i can go and still have a kinda decent career w/out giving it up!! i know that sounds crazy but its how my mind thinks!
Not crazy at all,, to an alky.
Sacrificing some/all of your life's love and work for a drink.. makes sense to me.
I lost a 10 yr skilled trades supervisor position at Chrysler Corp over booze.
Are you going to AA meetings ??
All the best .
Bob R