Day 5!
I'm still losing weight, which is amazing to me after struggling to do so for weeks and weeks in vain while I was drinking. Apparently, all the chips, cookies, and soda I have been shoveling in STILL can't compete with the destructive effects of the amount of alcohol I was drinking.
Re: fear: I relapsed the last time around after 8 successful months. So I know just how easy it is. But that doesn't mean I am going to live my life in fear. It does mean that I'm going to concentrate very hard on staying sober each day - for that day, and only that day.
I also have a little plan in mind to remind myself of the need to be vigilant, though I'm not quite ready to discuss specifics yet. It's something I plan to reward myself with if and when I make it a couple of months. I think it will be very effective.