Hi Summer
Like Josie, I never give up hope for my son, and I pray for him every day. I "accept" that I cannot change him. I do not accept his disease or any of the chaos that goes with it. I just accept that I can do nothing about it, except to look after myself, go to meetings, work my recovery and pray.
Work your program and try to stay in a good place with this. The answer will come when you are ready. My prayers are with you.