Thanks everyone, I knew this would be the best place to be for support. I will be reading the prescribed books. It is funny how I can see the difference of who I am after 10 days sober compared to right now. Friday I was on top of the world and today I can clearly see i am not. I am much happier as a sober person. I feel more successfull, positive, driven and happy. Thank you all so much for being there for me today. It means the world. Back on this pony!