Dee as so often has it bang on.
My point would be not to feel worse about it but use it as a really vital tool .
It spells out there is no point in the one drink that's not what we want.
I tried and managed badly but within tight limits for a few days/weeks... Then the dawn arrived and I knew my drinking was playing a game that still allowed drink to be around me so that when I failed it would be easy. Once I went for the no drink ever and to reject any other ideas of rational drinking it became easier as all I had to cope with was the mood swings sleep ,,,,,, but I didn't have any moral questions . I was starting on a solid base.
I am still only a handful or so weeks sober and I do have some complex medical problems but turning away without any question of ever drinking has been so beneficial for me.
I hope it will be for you also.
John.