I hear ya, Ryan.
I had 24 days on April 13 and blew it (on a Friday after work of course) and have drank three more times since then.
I don't know WHY I just cannot accept I cannot drink anymore--that I am an alcoholic and that's just the way it is.
Anyway, good luck to you and let's try not to feel so down about ourselves? It sucks to recognize all this, we are here, and we are trying to face this and make our lives better.
Good luck to you.