Welcome
I lost my mum to the big C two and a bit yrs ago.... that and loosing my job due to redundancy tipped me over the edge with my drinking.
Ended up in hospital with decompensated alcoholic liver disease last august. Im 40.
I didn't realise I had a problem until it was too late... (I also didn't know about this site back then! Thank you SR!)
It doesn't have to be that way for you... there is fantastic support here and you have realised there is a problem. Im sure you will choose the best way to help you along your journey... theres a few people on here that sometimes mention something called AA ha ha! It seems to work. But there are other ways too AVRT etc.... for me, it was a swift kick up the "you're gonna die soon if you carry on" butt! It worked for me! Good luck to you xx