Hi All, so glad you are here..
I have been feeling stuck. I noticed that for awhile there I figured not drinking would force me to deal with life and its responsibilities and realities. And, it was.
Now I am a little afraid that I am finding new ways to avoid, & not deal... (but still not drink).
Not to worry, its not really bad substitutes like drugs or compulsive behavior! Just stuff like reading, hiding in the house, TV, etc. But I need to keep an eye on it. Because I am a genius at avoiding what is key, especially when I'm afraid.
I can't take steps to deal with stuff, if I don't accept and acknowledge how things are. And I DON'T want to do that. I wanna skip that step. I seem to be stomping my feet and throwing a tantrum about it!
I acknowledge and accept that I am stubbornly refusing to acknowledge and accept the current state of things in my life. lol. I think I have to do this tantrum part, and then hopefully will start moving again....?