Call the AA or NA hotline and ask for help.
Get to a meeting. Doesn't matter if you are still using, just DO IT, hun! You have to reach out in person. You aren't hopeless, you are on here and you ARE reaching out, now it's time to get in person support, and it's out there! If you believe that something exists, make a prayer out loud or silently.
Love, hugs, & prayers sent your way,