Your attitude, not your aptitude, will determine your altitude
Join Date: Dec 2006
Location: Oxnard (The Nard), CA, USA.
Posts: 13,973
I know all to well being controlled by active addiction. You have wrote all the things I have and you are not pathetic.
You need help as you know all to well.
What do want to do as far as addiction treatment goes?
There is AA/NA to go to. There may be some rehabs you can afford. You are here at SR, you can continue to get support here.
No matter what you are worthy and valued as a person that needs the help to overcome an addiction that is not the real you.