Hardy,
can you get into a detox? It usually four to five days and they can help you make longer term plans if you want.
Addiction is insanity but it's treatable. We do recover. We really do.
You can call Salvation Army and see what they have available in your area. If you can make it to the Los Angeles area, you might check out The Clare Foundation. Try this link for Clare:
Clare Foundation Inc Treatment Detox Center in Santa Monica, California
You can do this. Keep posting here,read the info.
Love from Lenina