Thank you so much for sharing that m1k3. All this venting I am doing here and the feedback I am getting is so very helpful in moving me in the right direction. I've often wondered about my marriage...is it a real marriage...are we just an old habit or what. There is no intimacy, hasn't been for a long time. I refuse to be intimate with him when he has been drinking. I don't initiate...he doesn't try. If he were to suggest it or try, maybe one night when the girls are gone...I would tell him no because he's been drinking. Nothing shakes a woman's confidence than to think the only time her husband wants her is when he's been drinking!
I want the kind of happiness and peacefullness yall have. I know I can have it and I know it will take a lot of work and probably many tears. Even when I leave him, if he decides to get help and quit, I'm not sure I can go back to him. I love him and care about him, but I don't think I"m "in love" with him anymore
