Hi beherenow
to me my bottom was the moment I decided I couldn't live my current way of life anymore - it's a decision, it need not be you climbing your way out of a smouldering ruin....
alcohol or not, this...
I do wake almost every day ashamed of drinking to excess the night before. Then I do it again. I'll tell myself I won't drink until the weekend and then something happens, good or bad, and I'll drink to celebrate or drink from stress or whatever excuse I come up with for drinking.
sounds like someone you don't want to be, and I'm glad you're here looking for ways and ideas to change that
welcome
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