Thanks to all for the supportive messages.
Would love to be able to say Day 3 done but I can't.
Day 2 was fine, stayed in, slept alot, just feel tired all the time. No alcohol.
Day 3 - went to cinema Titanic in 3d got a cappucino going in and in the first few minutes actually felt euphoric, a lovely clean feeling, life is good I'm enjoying this a normal persons life.
Within minutes the inner thoughts start about getting drink afterwards and that's it the moment is gone and I have this monkey on my back that will not let me go. I hate it, I ******* hate this scourge that will not leave me alone. That was it and without anyone knowing I spent the full 3 hours trying to argue with myself and on the way home I gave in like the weak person I am.
Day 1 again tomorrow
