"... and for the first time in a very very very long time...I am happy."
and there are no safety issues
I believe God loves you and wants you to be happy. It is my belief that it is his will and for reasons one may never know, your life was and is what it is.
It is also my belief that once you as an individual put your faith in God, you will find peace and happiness no matter which direction your life goes.
Thank you for sharing.