I know . Everyone is different and nobody is equipped to give medical advice-except the strong recommendation to see a doc. No I really can't afford anymore outstanding bills right now. The taper method will have to work--it's better than drinking 6-8 drinks 2 days in a row last Mon-Wed. Then I did 4 Thursday and last night 3. This afternoon I'll head into town- 20 miles -40 minutes away to do laundry and I'll pick up a 32 ounce for after 6pm.. Once I'm back at home don't have the urge to run out again. Just hope I can hang on to SR through the Weekend for support-and maybe start an AF day Mon or Tues.
My next plan is to just hang on to here for support, buy the Alan Carr and AVRT books.
Lifering seems more in line for me than AA, but the meeting is an hour and a half a way.