Fitz, one thing at a time, then it will all fall into place. For now, stick with meetings and keep friends from the meetings close by. Some can even help you sort out what needs to be done and maybe help you to do it.
Stay stopped, this is priority! Your higher power will help, even if you believe in the group of drunks you hang with!
One second at a time, fitz. no overwhelming yourself now.
Love & hugs,