Hello poppet,
First of all, sorry if my mornin's sunshine seemed out of place. I sent it before I read all of this. Man, I am so sorry for all yr trouble. I'm glad you're managing to find a positive slant on it all - that's an amazing reaction and I bow to you. Sometimes it's good when somethng takes a difficult decision out of your hands, and coupled with your quitting the booze...I dunno, maybe this is the right path for you. A real new beginning.
However it pans out, we're right here.
Love you darlin, will drop in all day to say hi xxx