I totally understand what you are going though. I had that on Sunday. After I kicked my ABF out last week (or actually gave him 2 weeks, so we are still living together-tortuous), he has gone on a drinking binge, out from after work till after I am already in bed, trying to sleep. So i didn't see him, didn't text him. Then on Sunday, I felt sad. Horribly lonely and hurt. I texted him that I loved him. He texted back that he was confused, do I want to stay together. I said no, I am not confused, we can't be together, that I was just through the emotions, and feeling particularly sad.
Then comes Monday, and I feel better, more confident, happier, and resolved in my decision to move on in life.
The ride is up and down, all over the place. When you feel the need to call him, call a friend, go for a walk, distract yourself. And take care of yourself
