Scared
5th day without the drink and it has been the hardest so far. I feel so scared. Of failing and ending up back where I was, of never having a drink again and losing the person I was cos it wasnt all bad, had some fun times too. Of losing the friendship of my drinking buddies, the relationship changing with my husband cos we've had 21 years together and he has his own issues which he's unprepared to face as yet with alcohol. I don't know where I'd be without this site right now. Probably nearing the end of a bottle of wine in all honesty! Wish I could be different and I could just continue on with my life, minus the hangovers, sickness, hot sweats and shaking that is. Why can't I just drink normally??