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Old 03-27-2012, 11:13 AM
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Originally Posted by Katiekate View Post
Sounds like you know what you need to do, I respect you tremedously for taking the steps to make your and your childrens life peaceful.

I just thought I would tell you , I grew up in a family where my father was a very violent and relentless alcoholic, the scars it has left in my life are apparent still, but I am healing them everyday.

I always wished when I was a child that my mother would take me out of there, she never did. Everything about me would be different I am sure. I am not trying to put more guilt on you, what I wrote is straight up how I feel, and I wouldn't trade my life for any other one, children deserve peace, not the chaos and terror of a father who can't get a hold of his life.

But with a Mom like you, they can't go wrong , I mean that!!! I never once heard my mother say she was worried about how it was affecting myself and my bothers, thanks for saying it . The kid inside me loved it

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Ok Katie a big :ghug3! Thank you for saying that.

In my heart I know I'm doing the right thing, and over two years of this behavior can't erase a couple of days of good behavior. I'm already seeing the adverse affects of his drinking on my children and they are only 3. I couldn't imagine a lifetime of it. What has pulled me through is thinking what would my kids say when they are 18? Would they wonder why I never had the strength to leave. That is what reassures me that this is the right decision for me.

I know a few people find the peace to live with a alcoholic, but I don't think I'm that person.
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