Thanks everyone for the encouragement and thoughtful replies. It has been a very hard day. I’ve laughed a bit and cried a lot. Sure…I’ll share that. This isn’t what I wanted but is what had to be. It breaks my heart when I think of how she must be feeling but I know that I have to think about myself now. I know that the following days, weeks, who knows is going to be trying and often difficult. Sadness and trouble have been no strangers to me and I think I’m ready to face them once again. This time I hope to discover what it is in me that contribute to this in my life and mend it. Thanks again everyone and good luck with your own life story.