Originally Posted by
CloudyDays 
i am sad and scared and fat and gross and i hate myself. i know i am better than this. how can i get a week sober to establish some more sobriety? i am really close to losing it all...
No, you are not any of these bad things. And hating yourself is so wrong, and so likely to make it harder to quit. I think many of us drank out of self-loathing, and this feeds the cycle. Alcohol is poison after all. "Let's drink to our self-extinction!" I also think many of us were taught self-hatred as small children, vulnerable to emotional damage.
No. You must love yourself; that is crucial. Unconditionally! Not because of, or in spite of, just absolutely. You are perfect. Now what would this Perfect You do, to take care of Perfect You? To show love and kindness?