just a thought....
when i got my dui, i was kind of glad i did, b/c my life was sort of like yours...and i wondered more days then not what the heck it was going to take for me to get myself back in order.
if i could do it again, i would seek out community support agencies voluntarily, rather then being required to interact with them via the court. then again, nothing makes me stand at attention like a court of law, i don't know if i would have done it. hindsite is 20/20 they say....
there are support elements in your community, that is for sure. calling on them of your own volition is far far better then otherwise....my issues are going to follow me for life, sadly, but that was my decision. all i can do is make the sacrifice worthwhile....
pick up the phone. make the call.