Great post Sapling. Yes, I suffer from isolation. Still do. However, that is because of my property... it is isolated. Of course, I could go out if I wanted to.
I loved being alone and drinking. That is all I did. I would do the basic chores and then drink all day. I would do a load of laundry and it would sit for days in the washer and then more days in the dryer. It took a week to get one load of laundry done. It was disgusting. At the end I was drinking from morning until night and start all over the next day.
I hated myself and the alcolhol and the isolation were killing me, literally.
Now, I keep busy all day with stuff I let go for years. I must have months and months of stuff to catch up on. When I go to sleep at night now, it is because I am tired from working around here. It is a lot of work. 5 acres and lots of animals.
I feel good about myself. I am going to look into AA to meet people like me. I look forward to it. I am 9 days sober today.